September 02, 2003 - 7:02 pm
My sweet little H,
As your first birthday comes closer and closer, I find myself missing your ‘baby days’. The days when you were so tiny, so helpless. You’ve grown so much in this last year, it’s absolutely amazing. Before I know it, you’ll be going away to college! You’ve taught me so much about the parent and person that I want to be, and so much about myself in this last year. When I ‘signed up’ to be a parent, never in all my life did I know how much I could love someone. I always heard people say that “It’s the most amazing thing that you’ll ever do in your life“, and while I understood that parent’s love their children, I had no idea what I was in store for. You truly ARE the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. I’m blessed to be your mother. You’re such an amazing little person, and I‘m sure you‘ll grow to be an amazing man. You’ve got an incredible personality. Already you’re so funny, so sweet, so loving. You cuddle with me in the mornings, and when you’re sleepy. You cuddle with your stuffed animals just to be cute. You’re starting to know where their eyes and noses are too! You play peek-a-boo around the corners of the couch, and “where’s H?” with your blankets. You love for me to chase you while you crawl so fast away…then you slow down to let me catch and tickle you. You absolutely love Kitty and Keno - you follow that cat all over the house and even rest your head on her side. You love to do things with your little hands - anything that requires dexterity, you’re into. Little doors that open/close, little beads that flip-flop around, blocks, and BALLS - oh, how you love balls!
You’re the light of my life, H. It’s so neat to watch you grow, to see their personality grow, and to see you discover the world we live in on a day-to-day basis. All the little things that we take for granted, you discover and find so amazing. It’s like rediscovering the world for me. Things like how the bark on trees feels, how water comes out of the hose, and how wind chimes make such a pretty noise when you move them.
I’m feeling a little sad that my tiny infant has grown up so quickly to become a toddler - where did a year go already? But just when I think that I don’t want you to get any older, or any bigger - that I want you to stay just the way you are, you get cuter, smarter, and funnier! Then, I think, “Gosh, I don’t want him to get any bigger or older, I want him to stay just the way he is!”….then you do cuter things, get smarter, and funnier! Funny how that works.
Happy almost first birthday, little H. I’m so honored to be your mommy - I love you more than life itself.
Love,
Mom
